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How do you Know?
How do you know that what you are experiencing is depression? What is the difference between depression and frustration with a situation? Whats the difference between depression and laziness? I don’t...
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Selling Me!
I’m not very good at ‘selling’ myself, but I would be really happy if I was to get nominated for one of the Britmums BiB’s. If you think that my blog has helped you, or helped raise the awareness of...
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Will Power or Motivation?
I have, on several occasions in my life, had very good will power, enabling me to give ‘things’ up. When I was 11(ish) I stopped sucking my thumb (I know, quite late in life!), at 16/17 I stopped...
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Lonely illness
Depression is a very lonely illness, no matter who you do or do not have around you, whether they understand or not, you are still so alone. No one else is inside your mind, they don’t hear your daily...
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Parenting?
I have concluded that I am not actually ill, I am just a rubbish parent! If I was ill, the medication I am taking (and that has been increased on a few occasions) would be working and keeping me level...
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How does Psychology Help?
I have finally been assigned a psychologist, and have now been for 3 appointments. I was unsure what to expect, for starters it was a man, I had only ever spoken with female CPN’s and Psychologist and...
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Gremlins
After feeling quite despondent after last weeks psychology appointment I wasn’t sure how this week would go, suffice to say that it was much more hard going, which has left me feeling down, quiet and...
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On my Shoulder
Sitting on my right shoulder is my gremlin, and each day he seems to be getting bigger as he shouts his negative thoughts at me, egging me on to feel down, fed up and rubbish. On my left shoulder is my...
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Today – 8th April 2013
Once again I find myself sat at the computer whilst all 3 children are playing on electrical items, iPhone, iPod and DSi. I am acutely aware how bad this type of parenting is, and doing it seems to...
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3 Years On
Next week TJ turns 3, and 3 years ago I was still innocent to the effects of mental health and names of different antidepressants, even though I’d had a brush with depression at university I had never...
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Normal?
I’m starting to struggle again and I don’t feel like I have anyone to turn to. I’m fed up of feeling like this, I know I have got friends, but what they see doesn’t seem to go with how I … Continue...
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Who Am I?
I think I may have forgotten who I am, I feel ok at the moment, well I don’t feel down …Continue reading »
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World Mental Health Day
Today is World Mental Health Day, 3.5 years ago, I would have thought nothing of today, it didn’t apply to …Continue reading »
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What am I?
Earlier in the week I blogged about not knowing who I was, I still don’t know who I am, but …Continue reading »
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Depression?
What is wrong with me? Why am I so lazy and useless? I don’t and can’t believe that this is …Continue reading »
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Triggers and Questions
I have stupidly watched the 3 Bedlam episodes and an episode of 999 What’s your Emergency, which was about MH, …Continue reading »
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It’s Been Awhile!!
Ok, its been 2 months since I last blogged and since then my emotions, depression and anxiety have been all over the place! After trying to come off Venlavaxine I only last a couple of days before I...
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Almost a step too far.
Trigger warning, some people may find this hard to read as it mentions suicide. I’ve been struggling badly with my mental health for well over a month and last thursday (27th march), things just got...
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Living in a Void
What should you do when you feel like you have nowhere to turn? And the reason you have nowhere to turn is that you have pushed everyone away, or shut out anyone that has tried to care. I don’t even...
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